Getting back on track in life is really difficult. I feel like I am trying to find myself again. This past year has been the absolute worst year of my life. It has done so much damage to me emotionally that I don't know who I am anymore. I miss my Dad so much it feels so empty without him. It makes me so sick to my stomach when I think about it. Maybe humans are just selfish, knowing they are in a better place yet still wanting them here. I can not explain the difference that he made in my life.
I know how far I have fallen away from God, and I need to get back to where I used to be. Every day will be a step in the right direction. I have no choice but to accept what life is right now. The hardest part is realizing that this life is not in our hands. Life is somewhat of an interesting thing, we live to die, really. What you make of this life is the most important thing. I know that my Dad accomplished every thing he would have ever wanted and I look up to him. He wasn't afraid to take chances. He fought harder for his life than anyone I have ever met. Even though his life was cut short here, he now has eternal life.
I have grown to appreciate life more and will always remember what my Dad taught me, to never gave up. I can't give up on my life either. I can't keep dwelling on what the future might hold, I have to take it as it comes.
Now, all I have to do is put this into effect.
